Pebble Rocks

Back from the horse show and had a great time. Spent WWWWAAAAYYYY too much money, but it was worth it :)

Blue and I got Fifth in the stake derby. Not sure how much money we won yet, but hopefully it will be enough to pay for the class.















Jeza was busy with her job of watching Blue's neighbor...


















And Everyone had a blast playing on the beach...




Incase you are wondering, a lot of friends came on this trip, but for some reason my camera only seems to point at animals... Go Figure...

remember winter time and a cool breeze? that was nice, wasn't it?

POOR BURG has been panting for about 4 weeks straight. But not to worry handsome boy, the whole family is off to cooler pastures.

All of us, dogs, horse, me, are off to a horse show in Pebble Beach - YEA!!!!

GB is there now and said she can groom a horse without sweating. Which is amazing because you can't stand here, in the shade, without sweating. I'm sooooo excited.

In all the 8 years I've owned my house I don't remember ever really missing AC. But this has been the longest heatwave EVER!!!!

The high in Pebble is 68 for the rest of the week. I am so going to freeze my bootie off :)

Oh this is BullShit

I don't think anyone reads this thing, and I'm afraid to become an active member of a blog community because a few I've read have ended complicated - don't need any more complications in my life that... there are qualifications, as one can imagine.

OMG - I'm typing this thing with a theme and wondering.... Does he think I'm needy?

TS told me he's not ready for a relationship, of which I not only understand but agree. I would have dropped it/him TOTALLY but GB thought I should be a grown-up. So I was and I tried the grown-up/understanding thing and it seemed to work well.

Thing is, thing is, thing is...

Now I'm feeling like he feels sorry for me - FATT - Fuck All To That. Who the hell needs to feel sorry for me????

I'm trying to be a friend/strong but he's comforting me... But yet I want to be comforted and he probably wants to be the strong one.

I keep telling him I'm not complicated and neither one of us are convinced.



On that note, this IS art and not because the last A-Hole I lived with took the ladder...
(still not convinced???)

I Think I Can Be A Grown Up

After talking to GB for a while last night, I decided I'd take a swing at being a grown up.

In preparation of this attempt, GB convinced me that he didn't break it off with me because of me, that he really does have issues. She reminded me that he's at a terrible time in his life and that he displayed the fact he is a grown up by sending me that email. And not playing with my heart.

Being convinced of some things, I typed up an email to TS and sent it off. What's the risk? He wouldn't understand my response. He would think I am some crazy stalker chick. He wouldn't call me or type me ever again. He...

He just called. He liked it. He did get it. He doesn't think I'm a stalker chick. He did call me and will keep in touch. He...

Is my friend...

Irish I Was A Little Bit Taller

I'm so lame I took this of myself last friday and sent it to him.



Maybe I just come on too strong... Ugh, I hate the self evaluation I put myself through everytime someone breaks up with me. And why is that? Why do I wait to let them break up with me EVERY-TIME? I'm too weak that way. More self-eval... Just depressing.

Another One Bites The Dust

TS is out...

Not sure what happened, don't really care other than I'm really bored at work today and haven't laughed as much...

This morning he sent this lengthy email about concentrating on his daughter and divorce, etc, etc... "It's not you" bullshit. Whenever someone says it's not me, I feel like it soooooo is me.

I didn't think we'd have any type of future, I was just having fun and loved the attention. But after getting that email this morning, I'm glad I got it because he is a bit crazy.

Red Flags:

1. STBX - Soon to be Ex
2. Ex has accused him of molesting his daughter and he's not allowed to see her.
3. Only separated 6 months, married 8 years
4. Lives in a big house his "church" rents to him and is trying to get a month free rent from them. What kind of "church" (cult) does that?
5. Has funeral home curtains in his house to keep the light out (or to keep the cult from looking in?)
6. He never talked about any friends. Movies alone, no talk of weekend friend stuff, etc. Not sure he hangs out with anyone...

There's a few more things, but I'd be picking on him if I added them (arrogant, egotistical, computer geek, self-proscribed analytical thinker, trekky) but quite handsome.

I really don't think I'd like him if he lived in the same area and we dated because of all these things. He'd be too busy dealing with the ex and daughter for me and I would hate that, as I am an attention hog. But I was having fun bantering and talking and emailing and...

Ah hell... Maybe it is time to find someone in the general area and not thousand of miles away.

Sometimes I wish I wanted to be single still... But I don't :(

TS Can TALK

Those who know me know I'm not a huge talker. I mean, I can banter away and am on the phone a lot, but mostly listen. I'm not a preacher of things. I don't express my opinion verbally. Yes, I can have a conversation with someone and have input and I hate over talkers, but mostly I like to listen.

TS is chatty, which is good. He talked and talked and talked to me last night. It was really fun and I really like him and he's really cute, but man can he talk. He kept asking me if I was there or if I was awake. I'd just ring in "I'm listening". It gets old saying, "uh huh" and "really" all the time so I just listen. He has a load to say.

Remembering when I was younger and I'd have a "history" conversation with a boy it would take a couple of hours or a day and we'd both know the majority of information needed to know. Although he talked for about 3 hours last night, I still feel like there is so much more to know about this guy. He's pretty interesting.

Or maybe it's just that we are older now and it takes longer to catch up on 38 years????

Couldn't I Pick Trash Off The Beach Instead?

Got a Jury Duty notice. I've sent my letter in about the financial hardship it would cause. And it would. I'm single, have bills and a mortgage, am not independently wealthy, have not won the lotto, and my job will not pay me for Jury Duty. If they are asking me to give up my vacation time to go to court they are crazy. I also think it's a little insulting that they want me to answer questions about my salary. It's like I'm guilty of evading. I have to prove to them that I really can't afford to be there. I know, I know, it's one of my civil duties, but I pay taxes, quite a bit of taxes... There's really no end to this argument. But luckily I'm just discussing it with myself so I say I'd rather not go to Jury Duty to decide if someone is guilty or innocent and pay my bills.




But I called Shotgun!!!

Believe it or not, Jezebel got in the back after a bit. Basil didn't move... Good for you Basil. She is one pushy chick!!!